Even more than I wanted a munny, I want a polaroid camera! Nay, I *NEED* one!

Tomorrow I think I will buy one on eBay.

And then I will take pictures like these.

And they will be wonderful.

And maybe after I acheive that, I can concentrate on my still unstarted homework.

I'm really hoping inspiration kicks in some time tonight.

I'm violently inspired to do everything but English.

This error in prioritising may come back to bite me. But I'll be an illiterate bum with way cool art.

I have a new obsession. I want them! I want to paint a million of them!

http://www.summerofmunny.com/

Munnies. Little blank doll thingies which you decorate. Hint hint Christmas Birthdays General love gifts hint hint. There may be discounts for buying in bulk, so team up? I always have far more things to spend my money on than I have actual money. This is a new addition to the list.

In other news, perhaps I'm a little art crazy today? Made a tiny 3D paper prototype for my student directed project. It's a dress. With flowers and lightbulbs and teacups and a sun/moon thing and an electrical cable growing out of a flower pot. It also has a very big rainbow. It will roxxor your soxxors. I was going to paint it, but I'm thinking for the sake of accuracy, I should screen print it.

Of course, I don't get into my art when it's the only thing I have to do. It's when the art isn't as crucial as the 2 creatives and an oral which are not started and are due on Monday.

Oh dear.

Lovely Lani is back! I am wishing to see her. We were at her house at the same time on Wednesday, but she was sleeping/locked away in her room ^^;;; Low tables and fairly lights planning soon I am thinking.

"Got a body like a battle axe... Better buy you a Cadillac"

Nyah :bang-floop-smash-crash-fizzle: I'm going to crash and burn and die and become a trashy hairdresser.

Tried to do a tiny bit of the enormous amounts of homework which I have due very soon which I have not even begun to think about beginning to think about beginning really. Failed miserably. Cried. Realised crying won't help. Cried to Javo on MSN. Cried to whoever will read this. Continued to fail all the while.

I seriously am severely screwed. Everything is due within the next 4 weeks, well within really, and I've done none of it, and after today's attempt I feel incapable of doing any of it anyway.

Help?

I want holidays and mangoes with Jenna and parties at Javo's and sleepiness with boy.

My mum wants me to buy an investment property. I have to work overtime this week to respond to a tender from Defence. I want to be a lazy 17 year old =(

Everything is so so different.

My life now, and my life six months ago, or better yet, one year ago, have few to no similarities in all honesty. I don't know if it's good or bad; I do feel it was inevitable.

The world is still plodding along. I realised this when I saw an Australia Post truck today. There are still postman who deliver mail, despite all the drama of being 17. I appreciate postmen (and women) a little more now.

Maybe something coherent later, maybe not.

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
And your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

But I'll believe in anything
And you'll believe in anything
Said I'll believe in anything
And you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
Said nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn

And I could take another hit for you
And I could take away your trips from you
And I could take away the salt from your eyes
And take away the spitting salt in you
And I could give you my apologies
By handing over my neologies
And I could take away the shaking knees
And I could give you all the olive trees
Oh look at the trees and look at my face and look at a place far away from here

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
And your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

But I'll believe in anything
And you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn either way
About your blood
Your bones
Your voice
And ghost
Because nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn either way

And now I'll believe in anything

Guh, so goodness. Seems so.. apt, but I'm not sure as to what it's being apt about. Ben? Parts of it would be sad if it were apt about Ben...

Maybe it's just true of me. If you can give me a reason to believe you, I will, it doesn't have to be a good reason. It doesn't even have to remotely outweigh the reasons to believe the opposite. The really ridiculous thing is that I'm fully aware of my downfalls like that. I just ignore them.

Nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn either way

"I said nobody knows you, and nobody gives a damn."

A night of wow.

Scratched up and dirty white boots. Feathers all over the house. Milk on the kitchen floor. Confessions and decisions and proclamations. A Love-Warrior costume. Peanut butter, maple-syrup'd teabags, cheese. Concrete. Vomit on my doorstep. Candle in a Sprite bottle. Techno Tetris. Cats.

A day of bad.

Physical memories of stupid things done. Apologies to make. Convulsions. Black outs. Grinding teeth. The deepest depression I've ever known. Horrible horrible horrible.

Again? Maybe. I just don't know.

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I passed Road Ready!!! Now I just have to go to the shopfront with one of my parentals to pay/sign for my proof of residence, and I'm set to start driving =)

Be afraid, be very afraid. I know I am.