So, I'm a bit worried eh?

My sister's best-friend's family live a couple of blocks away from us. We live about a 5 minute walk from the bottom of Red Hill. From the roof of their house (another 5 minute walk from our house, in the opposite direction to the hill) they've been watching the flames on the hill. Concerned? Slightly. But 104.7 is yet to tell us to evacuate, instead favouring 'shake your booty' type sentiments.

On a more positive note, my Cafepress shirt is totally underway =)

'Tickle Me Emo' badge is available (in a pack of ten.. buy some and share?), along with 'Prada Ruk' prada ruk, with 'Goon Warrior!' shirt to come shortly. (I think the shirt needs a somehow not copywrited image of some Stanley...)

Squee, christmas tomorrow =)

Christmas is tomorrow ^_______^

My sister keeps asking what I got her. I told her 'a poke in the eye with a sharp stick'. She looked over at the 5 presents with 'To Kate, Love Rosie' written on them, 'They're pretty weird shaped sticks.'

I'm l'excited =) Though mostly because I know I'm getting Palmer Cash shirts. Usually Christmas kind of goes: presents, cool I suppose, okay, presents are over, lots of food, little kids etc., then home from lunch/dinner and there's nothing to do, but you can't go out 'cause it's Christmas. But generally it's good...

I've decided to buy a camera =) I saw an add for a Kodak easyshare for like $100. So I will be buying it post Christmas I'm thinking. That plus presents for boy takes away all my housesitting money (I'm not even sure how much that will be 'cause it'll be a day less now), then I get paid once more before I have to lock my card away in preparation for Folkies and Chilli Peppers.

So uh, I talk about money lots =
I have to clean my room today... You wouldn't think a room with everything in boxes could get that messy. But it's kind of shocking, even for me.

Blegh.

Eee.

I need to not have to go to work, or to get up early in the mornings, so I can stay up late and get into that little place where I can go all stream-of-consciousness-y.

Everything is too high tension. It's meant to be calm... it's probably just me.

I've bought two christmas gifts so far. Unfortunately, one was for my boss, and I intended to give it to her before she left for France this morning. Her flight to Sydney was at 11, and I got there at 9.30, but she'd already left. So now either I'll give it to her when she gets back, or I'll take my time to get her something better and give the gift I bought for her to my aunty, or my sister's friend's parents. It's pretty ^_^

I'm going to work half an hour early, so I can come home half an hour early, so my mother won't see (and thus bitch about) my sundress + granny-cardie + white boots combination. But I like it! And my dress is purple, and I made my purple crocheted collar into a headband, and I'm wearing the amethyst earrings my boss bought me. My mother wouldn't let me out of the house ^^;;

http://www.veryliberating.com

Reading these makes me feel happily insignificant. I feel like no matter how complex things become, it will all be okay, because there are people out there dealing with things so much worse. They can still take the time to show me that. It doesn't matter if your problems seem insignificant or superficial compared to someone elses, because they're yours and you still have to deal with them; but hearing someone elses story, instead of making you feel shallow, can make you see that it's okay if the world isn't perfect, and that bad things happen to everyone, and that you can come out okay.

It makes me realise that it's okay to consider giving up, so long as you don't actually do it. Things get icky, but think of how many people, how many grown-ups, are successful, or at least doing alright. All the bad stuff now, it matters, but it will pass, and it will all work out.

I feel much more at peace having realised that. And I know sometimes, when someone says they'll never leave, they'll always be there for you, they can't hold themselves to that, but I also know that's alright because I do the same thing. People grow apart. What matters is that they mean it now, and if something happens now, you know they'll try. And when things change, and they can't be there, or they don't want to be, for whatever reason, there'll be someone else. I don't mean to say I'm fickle (though I am), or so loved that I'll never be lonely, but I have faith that no matter what happens, what relationships fall and what new ones form, there will always be somewhere to go, and someone to turn to. It's a very reassuring, and sobering thought.

I thought I'd fried my brain, that everything more than skin deep had faded from my mind, but I think I'll be okay now.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeee!

It's 10 days to Christmas! Have bought no presents! Thankfully, by Tuesday the 'and I have no money' situation should be rectified with 24 hours advanced pay! Go my boss. Plus I've been working my butt off this week, so I'll get around $300 I think. It's awesome when you have a really productive day and someone recognises it =) Today my boss was like 'You worked really hard today, thank you!' and I did! It was way good. I got to use phrases like 'continuity of curriculum through the team-teaching system' and words like 'reciprocal' ^_^ The continuity thing is my new favourite.

I'm thinking I very much need to start saving for Folkies, and that following it I may be too broke to go to the Chili Peppers =\ Also, if all goes well I should be getting my Ps in April, at which point I will want a car, less likely to happen if I spend $300 going to Sydney. Oh dear. Oh well. It'll all sort itself out. If worst comes to worst, I get into the Folk Festival free, and if I have just $100 I can feed myself etc., I just won't be able to buy heaps of awesome stuff like I did last time. But I'll spend none of my pay in the new year until then, and will endeavour to save min. $250 for the Chili Peppers.

Ahh! Where have my whimsical thoughts gone! My brain is full of work and money, when it should be full of Summer and Christmas.

On a positive note, I found my Mary Had A Little Lamb lamp.

Hmm, Lani has inspired me to go on a yoga retreat some time next year. I indeed shall be doing it.

This year has gone so quickly, and next year will be even quicker, and then where are we? I've been thinking about this alot lately. I just can't see how, with things the way they are in relation to school, I can't see how I'll ever be successful ^^. But I still have faith it'll all work out. I'll start with 6 months of working, to save up some money, then travel. Who knows how that will change things. I'm thinking I should concentrate on the present for now.

Speaking of presents. Christmas is very soon and I have purchased no gifts and have no money ^^;;; Dilly of a pickle, eh?

I can't wait to move into the new house, start afresh with the whole organisation thing in theory. Same with my current room cleaning at my dad's. I'm hoping cleaning my room will make the feng shui better, and I'll feel less confused.

I'm all shades of too busy. It's not like it's hard stuff, work and time with friends etc., but I just want an entire day to myself... Still, I bring it on myself, picnic tomorrow =) I have to go find my pretty recipe book so I can cook something nice. Something easy ^^

Doesn't really work so well in Canberra because we have so many trees and parks... though I think Belconnen needs more trees.

I vote we go to Sydney and do it.

http://www.inhabitat.com/2006/01/19/how-to-turn-a-parking-space-into-a-park/

Yes yes yes, PARK(ing)! Go.

Who eats Coco Pops out of a green plastic 'Rosie' mug?

I do =)

School is actually over after Monday. Then we are year 12s. Are you frightened? You should be.

"There's a place your mother goes when everybody is soundly sleeping."

Parties Saturday and Sunday and boy coming over tonight, and no work after next week, it's all pretty sweet.



If only I had some money.

Goodbye cruel world.

My mum found out I missed a piece of assessment in one of my English classes. I will not be in the least bit surprised if I get kicked out tonight. I'm currently procrastinating going home by hanging at my dad's until she calls, which she will soon... I've actually already packed a bag of all the clothes I'll need for the rest of this week ^^; I totally cannot handle being yelled at tonight, I feel way delicate and I know it'll be fine and that her being angry won't help, so when she starts spazzing, I'm out of there...

Unfortunately I doubt my boy's mum (as sweet as she is) would appreciate me staying, so chances are I'll end up with Mr. Bad-Influence at Gowrie Court. Bad thing probably. Hopefully Clancy can come pick me up.. and let me stay at his house? Or maybe Cathrine seeing as I need to go to her place tomorrow anyway. All pretty much sucks 'cause my mum and I were getting along swimmingly this morning.

Another problem is I don't currently have a bedroom to hide in, the only way to get away will be to leave.

Wish me luck?





On a happier note; Rudd and Gillard! And formal, and the release of the Wii, and work on Friday gets me money. ^_^